Reasons Unknown Poem by Yannick Hermans

I'm tired of holding myself back
tired of waiting, when can I make my comeback?
It sickens me to know, all these feelings that I have
Are both full of hatred and love, I'm not completely a lover boy,
but I'm not a pushover either, I need to find the middle way
yet it's so far away, it's so hard to find, what's wrong in my mind
why do I have to face this everyday, The chose is making me insane
I need to know the truth, are they so selfish they think about nobody else?
or do they act though, thinking they're better than someone else
I think I don't want to know it anymore, I don't need the answer
All I want is to be on my own, for reasons unknown