R.I.P. My Depression Poem by Anita Khelawan

I have to do some soul searching
Eyes swollen and my heart is hurting
I’ve lost my way and everything is all blurry
I’m stuck right here because I love you only
I wished I was immune to pain
This love feeling forever driving me insane
So many questions and little or no answer
This is the fabrics of my life damn it; I have to make an alter
Yes I do love you…a bit too much
Then you upset me and I want to kill or strangle your guts
Today I realized what I was doing wrong
I confided in you when I was feeling out and down
Though I love you dearly
I mean no disrespect but me telling you my problems shouldn’t be
Oh my oh my I forgot about writing my emotions on a piece of paper
Writing until I can’t write no more...Read it to myself and burn it after
I hope it’s not too late… I hope I haven’t scarred you for life with my crying
Pen and paper I have to go back to basics
I’m an old dog (not really) I’ve forgot my old tricks
So I’ll sit here and see everything
Silence shall be my best friend for I shall say nothing