Pushing Aside Poem by Christina Adams

u seem so far away
but yet you seem so near
but then i start to think
is this love
or is this fate
i keep all my feeling
all bottled up inside
as i start to reach for your fading love
i said goodbye before
and ill say it again if i need to
u don't know how happy that makes me feel
i have my friends
that i love so much
and they know i love them to
my mom is great to me
she holds me down as someone trys to grab me
my dad fights for me like a big shield
my sisters stand up for me
no fights are gonna hold them down
my friends are there for me
every step of the way
your never a shield
your never covering me up from all disasters
your never there to take a fight
your never here when i need you near
you never can wipe the tears away
they just continue to fall
hit hit ground a big splash
as i look around to see if your here
then all i hear is the wind whispering your not even near
ad i see the road no cars passing by
no leaves rolling across
not even u walking up behind
i slowly walk away
in disappointment and all
i wipe the tears away
as i see my friends chasing me
i see my family about to hug me
saying your never here
that i have them
and thats all i need
just wishing the arms around me now
could only be yours and your only holding me tihgt
well at least i know i can say good bye
im wasting my love on you
leaking tears on nothing that has a heart
so i sit here now with my family and friends
happy as can be
just think how screwed up this would be
with tears still running down my face
one last time i love to say it
and be able to still stand up
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye