Purpose? ? Poem by Billie Jessie

Fate? What
Is the meaning
Of this life?
So that i fight

For what i know
I'll lose someday?
WIll it even matter
In the end?

God, if you are there,
I know you don't give
More than I can handle
But Why?

Do you have to rip him away
So quickly that I barely
Get to say 'goodbye'
And 'I love you'?

God, without him
What is my purpose?
Are you saving me from someone
I shouldn't have?

Or are you saving me for someone I should?