Prayer Poem by Trever Barlow

what should be a conversation with God
somehow always turns into a one-sided conversation with myself
I know that He is listening
yet for some reason I can't put my thoughts into conversation
Idle promises bounce around my brain
and I become distracted by what led me to pray
heartfelt apologies simply settle in my mind
and I can not find the words to tell Him how I feel
I cannot find the words to ask Him to stay with me
I hope, I pray that he knows what I am feeling
even though I can not express myself through prayer
I have every intention of following Him when I pray
but the next morning I remember none of the promises I made
I only hope that He knows that I mean what I say

in the path leading back to God
I struggle to take the first step
I rarely invite him into my heart
but when I pray I ask him to always be there
even when I forget to invite him in
I feel lost in the world without Him
although I have rarely felt His presence
I have always felt a piece of me missing without Him
I know that He is there when I need him
I know that He will forgive me when no one else will
all I must do is ask

Please God I am asking now
asking for forgiveness
I'm asking for help
I want to be a better person
I want to live by your side
I cannot do this alone, my Lord
I need you with me now
I need you with me always