Pain, Misery, Suffering Poem by Matthew Flores

*sigh* Why must it rain and never be any sun shine in my life.
Am I to live in misery?
Must I deal with pain forever?
I must be cursed to live this way for all eternity
My life is misery and nothing more
Nothing less

When will the light shine though the clouds?
Will the rain wash away all this misery?
Wash away all this pain
Cleanse me from my cursed
If this is so why must I suffer this night?

Let there be light shining thought the darkness of the rain
Rain of cleaning and of hope
Wash my pain away
Clear my mind from all my bad thoughts
Heal me from my suffering
I never ask for much yet I feel I am asking too much

Does this creator of life care how I live?
Why does he love to see me in so much pain?
Does he enjoy seeing me cry and suffer so
My heart weeps because of pain
It weeps for suffering
Ever so lost and need guidance

Asked for guidance
Asked to be loved
Asked so much to be loved
But these things for what I asked for is too much
For I feel abandon
Neglected
Lost
No hope
Finds things pointless

All I ask are three things
Yet it’s too much to ask for
For I am asking too much for these
I asked from my heart for these things yet I cannot have
Suffering
Pain
Misery

This is what I have and there is no light in me
As I walk around the forest of shadows and so dark I can’t see what is in front of me
A light lingers in the distance
But every time I walk forward it seems to fade in the distance
Stuck in the shadows of a forest
I shall wonder in the darkness

For I dwell in my suffering
My pain
My misery
All I ask is for help to clear the darkness and bring me to the light
A light to fill me with joy
Happiness
And love
So it may rid me of this darkness forever