One Cursed Night Poem by jessie davies

emotions are running very deep
every were i look, i see something of you
my cries silent
tears roll dow my inside
the self hatred burns like a fire

i've lost everything important in life
now i sit here by myself
screaming to god
why did u have to take her?

i look side to side
theres no one there
half full bottle
full of dispair

i walk the dark quite streets
remebering all the good times we had
contemplating how in one hour everything could turn so bad

u were right by myside
next minute ur gone from my life
now i must bare the burden of life
all by myself

dwell on the past
ask got please let me die
self hatred is so hard to hide
god i cant stand to keep on crying
im so lost inside

the loneliness cuts like a knife
silence in the house is torcher all night
i lay down with out u on ur side
ur not there to talk to or to hold me all night

i fear for the future
i didnt plan it without u
all our dreams are crushed
i wish we didnt go out that night