Once Again I Feel Like Crying Poem by Maya Thurber

Once again I feel like crying from the pain of the divorce. I need to cry but I cant I don’t think crying is a waste of my time anymore. I feel depressed. I need a day alone without anyone for a whole 24 hours. I need a day to write and to flush my body of the toxins from life and death I need a day for me. My mind feels as if it has snapped. I am scared of the unknown. I didn’t use to be. I use to look forward to it. I feel like I am going crazy. How is this happening? What is happening? I have no idea about what my life should be. I feel lost. I feel alone in a crowd of people. I didn’t know that was possible but it is. It feels like I am letting everyone down. I want to simply throw my body off a tower but I know I couldn’t actually do it its harder to be happy I have almost perfected the act of being a normal teenage girl. But sometimes I simply can’t keep the act up. It simply gets too hard. I need a break I need to get away format all I want to leave I want to runaway from it all but once again I know I couldn’t do that I love this place too much I think that’s why it hurts so much its what makes it so hard to let go I need a day to cry, to scream, to vent my fury, a day to release all of my emotions otherwise I will let it keep building until I do something dangerous or stupid and hurt myself.