Nothing Poem by Ryan Frenrey

As if I glided into a state of nothing
A place where there is no sun and I place where I cast no shadow
My soul confined within my inner body unable to escape; unable to breath
This state of nothing is not physical, possibly mental, but no doubt devastating
I ache on my future and dread on my past
I feel like nothing is going to get better and nothing is out there to save me
Suicidal thoughts yet not yet tendencies
But would anyone even notice I was gone?
Would a pin dropp be heard in a crowd of people?
Would a splash be heard in the middle of the ocean?
I am all these small things
A happening that has gone unnoticed
Feelings rejected and wounds unclosed
Neglect for a human soul like an evacuation from a disaster
Everyone runs away in the heat of the moment letting nature take its course
The devastation is left in ruins, just like my inner self
The outside I am in a disguise, a joyful phony disguise
No better than a mime who can only be interpreted from the outside
Yet I am sunk in between walls without the hand gestures
Caught in a state of oblivion ready to implode
A portal of no significance, no mission, just an occurrence
An occurrence that crushes and destroys a human soul with no remorse
The crushing that does not know it crushes
A gun that does not know it kills
Just a state of nothing that knows no matter
A black hole with no floor
Light that cannot penetrate
On my inner soul I am in the state of nothing
A nothing that crushes
A gun that kills
Stuck between the walls that have no purpose, no mission
But just an occurrence
Just a happening