Not So Goodbye Poem by Amber Leigh

It is not me,
It’s all about you,
Try escape this hell,
You put me through
I am owned,
Nothing is mine,
I have no freedom,
No time to shine,
And make my world,
All too divine,
This world of mine,
Is always grey,
Blinded of color,
Every day,
Cause people tell me,
What to do,
I can’t be me,
Have to be you,
Meet your standards,
Expected to be,
Something I’m not,
Becomes hard to read,
Your lips of course,
Cause all I see,
Is blah, blah, blah
Or “your royal decree”
But I don’t care,
Listening I’m not,
The same damn battle,
I’ve already fought,
My heart was shot,
By cupid’s arrow,
So it’s said,
But I say instead,
It was your eyes,
That kept me here,
Frozen in place,
No more to fear,
Just let me look,
One more time,
And not forget,
Before goodbye,
Those eyes of yours,
Kept me strong
For all those days,
I didn’t belong,
Just walked along,
All these halls,
A labyrinth I’m in,
No loss or win,
Cause this aint a game,
I want to play,
Just a nightmare,
Day by day,
But what do you know,
Of course you’re gone,
Just pictures I have,
Heard they last long-
-er than you being here,
Wish you were,
To wipe my tears,
But you leave me,
Just to wonder,
What should I’ve done,
To keep you under,
The sky above,
The clouds you were in,
Shut your eyes,
To leave me again,
Without a heart,
A brand new start,
Life was sweet,
But now it’s tart,
Because I’m the one,
Who took it apart,
But how could it be,
Me,
Who took this apart,
If my childhood was,
A bullet dodge,
I couldn’t miss,
Flushed those years that’s why I’m pissed,
Cause I’m older now,
And there’s no more bliss,
So much for that,
Time wasted as I sat,
And watched it fly,
You don’t realize,
Now I despise,
You,
For telling me lies,
“I’m always here,
For you to vent, ”
But now I know,
That ear you lent
Just went against,
My thoughts,
My words,
But like I said,
Nothing’s mine,
Just read the signs,
I leave behind,
Just one problem,
They aren’t picked up,
They lay around,
You’re so stuck up,
You won’t shut up,
Remember,
These words you speak,
I don’t hear,
In your head,
There aint a gear,
To click,
And make it work,
Your brain just ignores,
The wrongs you lurked,
Let me grow,
Let me say,
“Someday, two ways,
Is where we’ll go,
Down a road,
Opposite,
But you can’t choke,
Cause you have to trust,
Me the way I am,
Love me,
Help me,
Let me go,
Or despise will begin to show,
On my face,
Just to you,
My world is changing,
From grey to blue,
Now yellow,
See you aren’t a bad fellow.”
And now I go,
Time to grow up,
Those eyes come back,
I’ve had enough,
Not your eyes,
Sadness I mean,
My world has changed,
From blue to green,
Soon my world,
Is colorful,
Stay with me,
A happy never after,
Ending beautifully.