Night Of Sins Poem by krissi b'williams

i thought........about
all the answers, that i sought
and with a shout....
i scream, due to the misery
at all this........has brought
i am amist
a silent war being fought
a road, with so many turns and twists
as my mind resists
the war, between it and my heart
a battle that has torn my insides apart

with a strategical defense
it fights...with all its might
against........all of this
with a bellow of a heart-broken
scream....due to this nightmarish dream
from the subconscious reminsce
of you....
i hear a break from deep within
for my soul has softly spoken
as i go...through
another
night of sins
as i remember you...as my lover
instead of my foe

tears instead of cheers
as my brain, over and over again
reluctantly recalls.........the memories
of them all.....those of my sworn enemy
that i had buried deep within
that i wish to banish..that i long to forget
but a heart never does, does it?
out of sight...hopefully out of mind
but night after night......the memories tend to remind
and i somberly find..........
each and every dream...is fused with you
a perfect moonlit....siloette
of a man, searching and discovering my body with his hands
a dream of an deep passionate kiss, i wake up to lips, mourning this
goosebumps all over my skin
due to the nights..........warm breezy wind
oh, how i need to fight.....the nights of these sins
i wake in the morning, only to find
ive once again.....been, trapped in time
i plead for it to end...my nights of lorning and lustful sins