My Shadow And Me Poem by bakuli bhakali

I had a shadow.
Ya, a shadow.
That accompanied me since morning!
A shadow, that followed me even in my lonely ways,
Home, Office, Market..
Bathroom, kitchen, Bedroom...
Wherever I go....
It was by my side.
A shadow,
A loyal and trustworthy shadow.
In the beginning
I was uncomfortable and scared.
Little irritated too!
After all it was the question of my life
And little lonely moments!
How could I let someone steal them?
How could I bear someone interfering in everything I do?
How could I at once
give away my pride possessions? !
That too someone I met only in the morning!
After all that's all I had!
But gradually
I felt, I liked and I loved it.
I started to trust
and share everything I had.
Until this evening
It was my habit and hope,
I couldn't think a moment without it.
But in the evening
It disappeared..
Before I went to switch on the lights.
Although it came back as soon as lights were on...
For those few moments
I was scared again.
This time
In fear of loosing my beloved shadow,
In fear of returning to once beloved lonely moments.
Time changed
So do I.
They're not desired any more!
I loved, I enjoyed, I lived my moments with my dear shadow.
I asked, I prayed, I begged
Not to leave me again
As it pain.
Slowly I disowned, I lost, I forgot
My past.
And along....
My ways to live alone.
I knew no more
a life without my shadow,
My much loved shadow!
It was twelve at night.
Everything was calm and quiet.
Even the noise in next door,
And the baby babbling upstairs,
Stopped! ! !
It was only a few dogs barking in distance!
And the clock
That sounded clearer than ever....
Reminded me of the damned dark night ahead.....
I looked for my shadow
It was nowhere near me.
I eagerly awaited.
But it didn't return.
I wished, I prayed, I begged
For it's safe return.
I was more concerned.
But nothing worked.
The night grew stronger...
And I?
Weaker than ever....
It was the longest night of my life!
I felt betrayed.
My beloved shadow sacked me
When I needed it most!
I was broken!
I was angry!
I was crying like never before!
I thought it may come in the morning!
What's the use?
It left me when I needed it most.
I wished none should live a night like that.
Even in their nightmare!
I didn't care for my shadow anymore.
I said this to me.
And I persuade myself not trust anyone again.
They come, they go.
As it suits them.
We are alone forever.
Although, I promised
I persuade not to trust anyone again.
I could not stopped hoping against the hope.
Somewhere..
At some corner of my heart...
That hope remained....
In that lonely fearsome night
My beloved shadow
Didn't betrayed me.
It was there.....
by my side......
As always! !
I couldn't feel or see it
As there was dark both inside and outside me! ! ! ! !