My Mind A Blissful Insanity Poem by Trevor McLeod

Twisted and Strained
it is amazing in it chaotic sense
both sides bicker and fight
vying for control

and somewhere in the middle is me
I lose when either wins
deep passion or blindling hate
I wish I did not have this fate
for down the middle is my mind split
how sometimes my mind just wants to quit

I Can solve the most comples puzzle
yet I fail to remember the most basic
oh what a wonderful insanity
defying these two great beasts
just so I can be me
if barely for a week

I am sorry my mind has been shattered
I have tried to pick up the pieces
yet more I still find
how can I be
what I am
when the pieces of me are scattered
or in my hand

I wish to be complete
how I wish to be whole
but alas I now this will never be
I am to fractured and cold
people fear me
people loath me
how I wish someoen would just hold me

gah these blinding pains
take a toal on me
they doth weary me
how can I be so loving and kind
when I am fractured and quiet planly out of my mind
heheh it is an amazing feeling
to lose ones self within ones own mind
but it is a terrible price when one loathes himself

ah ths bliss of indifference
I am me
I am me
I am me
The creator
the thinker
The Lover
each one exsists
each locked in toil
I am fractured and scattered
nor here or there
but just about everywhere
ah the bliss of insanity
but the question is
who is more sane
I for knwoing what I am
or you for wondering what it is like to be me