My Biggest Pretend Poem by sreedevi sadasivan

My Biggest Pretend

His eyes have grown big like a cat
I think I am in love with you, he purrs
I flinch at those words
Inside, my dark tarnished heart trembles
No, it's an impossibility it says
You know how it all plays
You will hold hands and walk through the beach
He will crack jokes and you will pretend to laugh
But one day you will laugh quite easily
Your trigger to be careful
You would tell him a million times that you love him
But never looking at him in the eye
Watching him only in the depth of his sleep
He is feeling like the pretty tea- cup you press to your lips
Envies the tea that you take in, its warmth touching you inside
But he doesn't know what's quite wrong yet
Doesn't know what to demand
Until one day with those big sad eyes he tells you he is sorry
Can't do this anymore
And you shiver faking surprise
You watch him as he walk out of the door
Yes you have won
Broken him
In the process shattering into a million pieces
But a million colours is what I see in his eyes right now
I look at him and I laugh like he has cracked the biggest joke
My biggest pretend yet
He turn his eyes away hurt, offended
And I close my eyes as he gently walks away