Mirror In My Mind Poem by ERNEST CLARY

My thoughts are so unclear
causing my own death do I fear
at this rack of bones I see looking in the mirror
my things in anger I started throwing at the wall
my nosy neighbor he did hear
and came to call
from his room next door he did hear
within a moment he was here
living so near down the hall
seeing my depression telling of his expression
he seen my fear an obcession without confession
in a voice so lowly he said so slowly
you need to lay off the beer
he knew I was drinking
slacking of rational thinking
he walked away shaking his head
looking for resolve
I started thinking about what he said
that was the solution
I made a resolution
and went to bed
the sun came rising
I started rationalizing
thinking where I been
all these things in my head
things mother said
I started drinking again
its not what I see
its what I hear
all these words within me
looking in the mirror
all these thoughts I have hid
from my head I tried to rid
I was just a kid
not knowing what I did
'both in act and sound
you put your father in the ground'
no mother did I do or say
I wanted not for father to go that way
oh mother why blameth thee
father didnt do it because of me
her voice I do hear
in my head so clear
such conjections with morbid reflections
at my soul they do grind
lousy projections
if just I could find
a way to move her voice from my mind
thank you mother
now I will drink another
so your voice I will not hear nor bind
no longer will I hear your reflections
in the mirror in my mind
you accuse me of such treason
now I will drink with good reason
I will guzzle beer till I, m blind
till I rid this mirror in my mind
now mother doth thou see
you killed father
now your, e killing me
why doth thou thee blame
arent thou suspect same?