Marami Pa.* Poem by haidee blanche

'you know everything, ' she replied.

i was having high hopes that indeed, nothing else is waiting to be known to me. then i remembered the hanging question of being able to be with her again.

then she reminded me over and over that i just happened to land onto her lap one fine day when she was in a remorse.

'i can't remember, ' i told her. but i remembered how special it felt when you called me strange names - a lot of them. for a stranger like me.

'i can't remember, ' she answered back.

i thought i was mumbling something - some prayer to the gods that the earth would just swallow my feet and let me disappear.

but i already saw her approaching. it was a crystal sight. i wanted to wake up. the nightmare was eating me alive.

and when she got to me, it happened - the thing that i was so scared of.

i was pulling away from her grip as she heavily breathed these words unto my neck, 'you just happened. so stop. because you don't ring a bell anymore, ' - all moist and warm.

i did not wake up the next morning.


*i don't know everything. still a lot.

July 20,2008