Losing Sleep Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

You kept me up
Haunted my dreams
Haunted my life
Just when I think you’re gone
You smile and wave
In my dreams
In my mind
So close to this stupid edge
You’re almost driving me to drink
Again
I went to rehab
Because of you
My disease was loving you
Never again
Not today
I told myself to forget
Sure the memories were good
But the burn like wood
I can’t believe I loved you
Don’t know what to do
So tired of losing sleep
I don’t eat
I don’t rest
My mind is
Like a long test
I have to be on my guard
You run in circles all the time
I’m wishing you’d just stay in line
So that way we could go separate ways
Leave me
Deceive me
You know you
Never needed me
Never cared that much
I let you go
I thought so
These feelings cause nothing but trouble
Oh when will you go away?
I’m counting the seconds
They quickly turn into minutes
And in no time at all
Hours
Then quickly
Its changing
Days to weeks and strangely
It seems to go back seconds again
It should be
Months
Years
Lies
Fears
In the end that’s all you gave to me
I used to love
Losing sleep
Because you were all I could think
About
Now I’m ready to declare insanity
If you don’t hurry and get out
Seconds
Minutes
Hours
Days
Weeks
This is really strange
My thoughts are starting to make a little sense.