Live Eternally In An Inner Conflict Poem by Laura arwen

I'm continuously unsatisfied
with myself
I must forget
everything bad is
going on with
this world
I need the
positive essence in
my life
I don't see
any new horizon
for me
I'm not very
much akin to
learning
I need to
stock up on
everything is possible
I'm here on
having a crazy
attack because I
can't spend money
and donate what
I want
I want and
need more time
to refresh myself
I'm always undecided
in making decisions
It's not comfortable
to have inner
conflicts
I feel frustrated
and nervous when
I don't do
what I planned
or thought of
doing
It's clear living
totally alone is
possible to me
I'm really satisfied
when I donate
something
I feel really
empty and lost
when everything is
too slow
I need more
positivity and energy
because the negativity
is killing me