Lifeless Poem by Eman Awad

But this time i'll let go,
i can't go on with my life like this.
All because i love you so,
i'd prefer a life time in lonliness.
Maybe if i let go of you,
i'll be letting go for good or for a while.
But finally we'll know what's true,
i'll share you or say goodbye to your smile.
I knew i'll be swept away,
so swept that i wouldn't see all the lies.
I wouldn't believe if you betray,
i'm not that strong to be far from your eyes.
Those eyes, that i never saw,
my reflection in them even for one time.
Even though i had a love that grow,
just for you, i could never call you mine.
Tell me if it's just to live,
your life, for some one else's dreams.
Is it possible just to give,
for nothing in return but wounds and seams?
I'll be glad to sacrifise you,
the love of my life to any one or no one.
That's how far i might go,
i'd rather see you happy even if my life's gone.
I admit it'll be hard to pass you by,
but if i passed you by today, i'll tomorrow.
I'll pass you and my heart will cry,
then i'll try to forget all but your sorrow.
You caused me pain but your smile,
erased all the pain and grew my love.
I admit getting over it will take a while,
i'll fall from my heaven very high above.
That heaven is worst than hell fire,
i can't be with you and i can't be without.
Just seeing you is my only desire,
but all i do is to wait and to cry and doubt.
I'll die over your love, i know,
and your face will haunt the dreams and reveries.
In the darkness your words'll glow,
lies or not but they are my dearest memories.
I had no life before i met you,
and when i let go of you i'll remain lifeless still.
I'll die long before i forget you,
but if that makes you happy, that i will..