Lean On Poem by Keith Sly Simpson

You lean on me, she leans on me
I am burdened with your responsibilities
I enjoy, I love it too
But this is always not what I want do
With all this I wanna be sad today while I still have time to stand in my shoes
So that I could be in yours tomorrow and be sarcastic for you
I am the entertainment, the support, the love
Or the number you can call anytime for any help
I know you are broken and need comfort
Confused and need guidance
Scared and need a light
Wounded and need a break
Sad and need to cry
And every time you are in any of this
I have always been there to become the medicine.
World teaches me to be selfless and never think for alone
But this is giving my life a bad tone
You call me and I come running for you
But you never asked if I needed something too
To you sometimes I’m like a plastic- use and throw
Or like that ‘yes’ from different ‘no’s’
I wake up every morning like me but sleep like you
The parts I had some time ago are vanishing away slowly too
I am nothing more than a puppet, while the strings are in your hands
If I have some time alone, you fill it up with your thoughts
Whenever I enter a relation, I don’t find any support space
Because they are already a broken case
I love to give every piece of mine to you
But that’s all that happens, me burning for you.
My life has become a predicament
Maybe you never knew your fault or maybe you never wanted to
Maybe you don’t see it or maybe I am overreacting
But I know one thing,
That I am tired
Exhausted
Lifeless
All I want is do things for myself sometimes
With your help or even without it in desperate times
I need a hand,
A shoulder,
A light
A support
And now I question when I am alone
Is this a responsibility or a burden?
Is this help or compromise?
Is this your life or my life too?
Is this pain or anxiety?
Is this using or exploiting?
Is this living or existing?
I am human being and need a stick too
A girl who gets wounded, broken and shattered by you
Though I love you all, but this is not what I always wanna do
I would love to give you support but I would be grateful if you’d support me too!