Just Another Drop Into The Ocean Poem by Deja Noelle Rupp

I'm slowly walking down the oceans sandy path
the moon is full
and casts an eerie light across the black water
the night is windy
but a warm wind
that blows through my long black hair
I hum a song
a familiar song
one my father always used to sing to me when i was young
I'm barefoot my toes curl up in the sand
my white dress's straps are falling down my shoulders
but i don't care
there's one place I want to go and its into that dark ocean
with the crashing waves that are quietly whispering my name
the shock of the cold water
makes me gasp
with every step thoughts of my life play before my eyes
and as i look back the footprints have already dispersed by the freezing ocean's waves
I don't look back anymore
the salty sea is above my waist
for a moment something inside me says go back
don't do this
but i want to
I can
nothing can stop me
I keep going
the water splashes over my pale face
the refreshing water
a tear forms into my ocean blue eyes
it drops from my eye and crashes down into the sea
just another dropp of water
that's all I am
just one person in a world full of billions of others
will it make a difference if one dropp of the ocean disappeared
no
I take my dress off
as i go as far as i can into the darkness
I take my last breath
and scream
scream as loud as I can just because I've always wanted to
because one single scream is how I feel
I fall back
a minute goes by
i feel my heart slow down
my struggle for air
but I don't want it
I don't want to breathe another f*cking breath of air from this twisted place
so I let the sway of the dark blue sea
sweep me away
my life plays out before me
but I don't want it to
I don't want to see my f*ck up of a life
I'm getting this over with
so underwater I open my mouth and breathe
my life playing before me fades into white

my white dress washes up on the sandy shore as the sun starts to rise