Its So Hard To Move Forward Poem by Stella Andrews

</>Why do i love you still after everything you have done to me?
Because of you i have lost everything.

I lost my home,
my family,
my friends,
my confidence,
my happiness,
my self respect
and now im here.

A small town girl in a big town world.
By myself now that you decided you didnt want me anymore.
I don't have a home.
I don't have a friend or someone who i can talk to.
Im so young and i'm not ready for this life.

But i don't have a choice do i?
I cant go back to my home town because no one will ever look or treat me the same.
I'm a different person now anyway.
To be in that town you must fit through the circle,
but i have been reshaped into a triangle.

I have to be strong right now.
When i have no one but myself,
Then i need to trust myself and work twice as hard.

But its so hard to move forward,
when every night i go straight backwards to you.

The thing is,
I have the chance,
I have the power,
To move on and move out.
Move forward..
But the thing is,
I don't want to.
I want to be here.
but i know this.. i do not love you.