It's Raining Again (For Susan) Poem by Niko Tiliopoulos

I never understood
the mysteries of my heart,
how can I sense
the secrets of the world?

Well, it's all right.
At least, I'm not lonely in my loneliness.
God is in pain with me.
The angels cry
in the void of my heart.
But, the demons laugh
at the weakness of my faith
and keep on trying to possess my spirit.

How can I ease the pain of my mind?
I'm surrounded by ghosts
that torture me silently.

Who am I to defy my fate?
Who gave me the right to love an angel?
But then again, it was inevitable.

I met her in a storm of emotions
and inside the oblivion of my soul
a tiny ray of hope was awaken.

I got pulled inside the sad rainbow of her eyes.
I was seduced by the pearled sea of her smile.
I was mesmerised by the waving of her seaweeded hair
that radiated the light of the thousand suns
they had violently adsorbed.

I was sleeping all these years before
and I thought I was alive
inside the mediocrity of my feelings.
I've been unfolding my love for her ever since.

But, we were worlds apart.
Dimensions of emptiness
kept her from seeing me.

How could that angel love me,
when she couldn't even sense me?

She kept on mumbling words
she heard in this world,
trying to convince her heart
she cares about me.
How could she?

No human, no idea, no emotion
can fill the void of her absence.
No god, no devil can replace
the wonder of her existence.

It is still raining heavily.
The sky is filled with lighting.
God must be angry with me
for trying to change
the order of the universe.

Unfortunately for Him,
and for me,
I'll keep on trying...