Is There Another Me? Poem by Haley Brown

I thought for a second.
Then I realized that, this cant possibly be me.

My outsides had matured so much
But because what had happened,
My inside hadn't grown at all.

I became stressed out.
Then I was bulimic for a while,
Not long after that,
I started cutting. Not ony my arms, but my body.

If you really took the chance
To look inside me,
You would see me crying
Find all my secrects and lies.

Everyone thinks I'm so strong,
But the truth is, I'm really not.

I'm tired of pretending
Everything is perfect.
When actually everything is completly wrong.

I lose sleep,
I've lost my friends.
I've lost my home, my everything.
It must be true.
Nothing last forever.

I don't know how many times
I am going to have to get hurt
To understand,
That this way it is always,
Going to be.

I have found a new family,
One who loves me.
They will do anything for me.
They keep me on my feet.

But,
I am who I am and
This is all I can and
Will always be.