Irrevocably Infected Poem by Shakeela Kingzley

I was on a journey
The destination wasn't clear
I needed to experiment
And challenge every fear

I was slightly unsure
But not at all lost
He lured me in with his mind
And the price of my heart it cost

I wanted to have just a taste
But then we really connected
Aside from everything I ever knew
I was irrevocably infected

I tried to make sense of it all
Then easily dismissed the thought
I hadn't realized I was hooked
And too distracted to know I was caught

I mean, I was on a serious high
The one you always chase after
And the feeling was just so good
Like those deep bursts of sudden laughter

It's not easy to admit
But the addiction became clear
Every time he was far away
I needed him close, needed him near

I urgently needed to detox
It was time to break away
I managed to stay clean
For 3 weeks and 5 days

Put up all my guards
Avoided all the traps
And when I thought
I was strong enough



I easily relapsed