Invisible Injury Poem by john medlock

invisable injury
I am that person who stands next to you in shops
i look like every one else around you so u wont even notice me
i am injured but i have all my arms and all my legs and no bleeding wounds
but my eyes are dull and hollow my face is strained and sad
i have bags under my eyes as i cant sleep as i fear the night i fear my dreams
my mind plays tricks on me and thoughts of the past that hound me
i have fealings like hate and rage and i cry becouse im depressed
i think of suicide as i think i am a burdon to my family
i cant cuddle my son or sleep with my wife as im so distracted
u see my mind is still in action of a conflict that past many years ago
when i left the conflict and everyone got on with there lives
i am still fighting inside my head i did drink and do mistreat my meds to forget
i may be abusive as i can not cope but i dont want your pitty
i need help you see as everything seems so dark and hopeless
ive got to except help and stop being stuborn i am not weak for asking im stronge
i got diagnosed with ptsd and met with caring people
they told me they cant make it go away but im not on my own from know
they can make it easyer to manage and help me to cope and when im down
so please spare a thought for the service men around as there battle rages on
just what do they sacrificed to keep us safe and never want thanks in return.