Insecure Poem by Angela Deal

The mind that thinks so relentlessly it aches
The girl who strives so hard she breaks
Insecurities engulfing dreams
Bursting with disappointment
Ripping at the seams
Loving so deep
Rejection, dissmisal is plentiful
Far too impossible not to take personal
So often imagines who she wants to be
Can't even fathom what it's like to be me
Cause dont even know the woman in the mirror glaring back at me
Used so many times
Invisible to mankind
How can I be selfless,
When I can not accept myself?
Still refuse to accept the lonliness
Refusal of being less than stunning
Thinks so hard on self improval
What is beautiful?
Not it's not me, not yet.