In Need Of A Father’s Love Poem by Vangile Mtyali

It was only when I was half of 50
That I realized there was still a little girl inside me crying for her daddy
Wanting him to embrace her
Wanting him to tell her she is beautiful
Wanting him to tell her he's always gonna be there no matter what
and that nothing will harm her because he will be there to protect her at all cost
And he will be her hero
however that man was never there
So she went searching for him
Instead of finding him he found a duplicate of him not the blue print
He found the one who hugged her
but didn’t embraced her
He found the one who touch her
Not in a special way but in sexual way
He found the one who didn’t say you beautiful
But said u hot
He found the one who said trust me
In actual fact what he meant was trust me with your cookie
Cause I just want a piece so I can go
He found the one who said come sit on my lap
Not cause he wantedto2 tell her stories
But he wanted to see if she can ride him
He found the one who whispered sweet nothings
He found the one who said I will love you the way Christ loves you
But failed to love and lay down his life the same way Christ did
She kept on believing that he must be out there
Every time she went search for him
She came back with tears on her face
With a hole in her heart and with wounds
she asked
what's wrong with me?
I'm beautiful and I have so much love to give
But why is my love always thrown back in my face
Daa I respect, love and support him
I make sure he’s always satisfied
in the end I always end up being thrown like a piece of trash
Till that day she found herself so drained
when she looked into her chest she saw a hole
It was not a hole that any man or boyfriend could fill
But it was a gab
A gab that said
'Lacking a farther love'
Vangile Mtyali
20 10 2013