If You Only Really Knew Me.... Poem by Derryn Whitaker

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would see
That this smile covers up
All the pain I feel in me

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would realize
That behind my hair and makeup
There's a little girl that cries

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would see
That I'm a lot more messed up
Than the person I seem to be

If you only really knew me
Then I guess you'd finally know
That there's been nights I've cried myself to sleep
Coming close to letting go...

And if you only really knew me
You'd see I'm not so strong...
Though I seem like I don't care at all
About the things that have gone wrong

And if you only really knew me
You'd see me wipe the tears away
Waking up to another morning
Another day to act okay