If Only Poem by G J Salgado

I wanted to go back; to be in the place that I once was
Less than a decade ago when I felt I was finally me
To feel the way that I did in those last moments
The moments that changed me
Within the times that I could see
So much time has passed since then
It appears that I've declined in such a way that I cannot go back to what or who I had become
If I could only be in that moment of euphoria and ecstasy again
If only to breathe and love like that again
Without anything stopping me from feeling what I felt once I knew that I began to truly be alive
Inside all of that purity and innocence of all things that were beautiful
If only I could love myself again as I once did