I Wonder Poem by Lucy Heart

How many months I spent wondering
Wondering if I'd ever be good enough for you
Waiting like a lost puppy
Just for you to look at me
Maybe even smile at me, if I was lucky
Hanging off your every word
As if they may be the last I'd ever hear
But never daring to speak to you
I never felt worthy enough.
Until one day I plucked up the courage
And my love was finally returned
And I felt like I shoudl be thankful
That someone as superior as you
Would go for someone like me
And for a moment it was bliss
Total utter and absolute bliss
But bliss only ever existed in my mind
Nothing was ever perfect
I couldnt see that
Until the harsh reality tore my blindfold off
I couldnt see who you really were
I only saw what I wanted you to be
Or maybe that was who you wanted to be
But being and wanting are two different things
Like being in one relationship
Whilst wanting another
Untimately it was the want for other things
whcih drove us apart