I Wonder Poem by Patrick Calleja

It's a strange feeling isn't it
Not knowing whether or not you still love someone
There are days where'd you feel great
And not a person in the world could ruin that
While other days you'd just miss her
Not knowing if it's because you still have feelings for her
Or if it's because you just miss her as a person
Nothing has been able to fit that void in my life
Is it meant to be replaced?
Or is it still there for her?

It's not easy to answer a question like that
I wouldn't answer because I wouldn't know how
Or maybe I don't want to know how
Is there even a difference?

It's funny how I don't manage to write about anything else
It's like there's nothing that's interesting to write about
Either that or I'm just still in love with you
But what's the point of that - Nothing

However that's not the whole point of this
It's been two months since I've written anything
It's really hard to be stuck in a block
Not knowing if it'll ever pass
If I'll ever go back to writing again
But I guess this is writing - Or is it?

I wonder why such blocks happen in my life
It's like everything crumbles
And I have to pick up all the pieces
But that's not the tricky part
Because putting them back together
Seems to be the most difficult part

I wonder when things shall return to normal
When the day shall come where I can pick up a pen
And write once more - Share my work with others
I wonder if such a day shall ever come - I wonder