I'M Lost Poem by Victoria Korobochka

You're a kind and caring angel,
That lives inside my heart.
But now my life is shattered,
Just like our friendship.
I used to feel so close to you
Wanted to give you the most attention.
But now we are so distant,
It feels like I'm ignoring you.
I'm sorry that I'm hurting you,
I always meant no harm.
Lately I'm hurting everyone,
Even my own heart.
I'm keeping secrets from you,
But I'm afraid to hurt you more.
All I really want
Is for you to understand,
Without me saying anything.
I feel like I'm in hell,
Desperate to reach for heaven.
But every ache is like a chain
Tightning hard around my waist.
I always want things to hurt me,
Want them to stab me deep inside
And feel the blood rushing through my veins
Sending burning pain to me
And eventually die.
I don't know what to say,
Don't know what is going on,
I want to cry, to scream but not fear.
I'm lost...
Don't know what I want from life
And what it wants from me.