I Love You Still Poem by Joanna Pavlides

In the middle of the road
I stop
I stare
At the bridge
And trees and cars
And at the crowds walking past
Looking for a familiar face
For your smile
For your gaze
For your arms open wide

But

Deep down I know
That you are gone
And I know
You don’t realize
I want you back so much

So many things
I wanted to do
So many words
I wanted to say
But was too afraid to let go then

In case you judged me

But

You judged me anyway

For things I’d done
Out of loneliness
Out of your fear
For me to be gone
You let me let you go
Although I wanted to stay

Please let me say
I love you, still.