I Hate Myself For Raping You Poem by Ramona Thompson

Dark rewrite of the Joan Jett and The Black Heart's hit, I hate Myself For Loving You

Midnight, feeling uptight
What the hell did I just do to you?
Swore that I'd never hurt you, now I've torn you in two
I know if I call, you'll just hang up on me
But I want so bad to apologize to you
Hey, Jackie, it's a fact after tonight
You'll never have to see my ugly mug again
Swear that I'll be leaving town
This time I won't go back on my word
I won't be messin' your life around
I did't mean to act so jealous
I did't mean to lost all control
Know that forever I'm gonna be thinkin' of you and what I did
Ev'ry night and day
From this moment on
Eternally
Cos I broke your heart, then I took your self-respect away

I hate myself for raping you
Can't break free from the memory of what my anger made me do
I wanna walk but my tortured brains sends me running right back to what I did to you, that's why
I hate myself for raping you

Daylight, spent the night thinkin' about you
Left me dreamin' about what my bad, bad temper led me to do
I'm angry as hell at myself, girl, for what I put you through
Hey, babe, I know now I did't treat you right
I just don't know what I was thinkin' last night
I wanna see your face and say I'm sorry, so sorry for our fight
I swear
Eternally
I'm gonna be thinkin' of you and what I did
Ev'ry night and day
I broke your heart, then I took your self-repect away

I hate myself for raping you
Can't break free from the memory of what my anger made me do
I wanna walk but my tortured brains sends me running right back to what I did to you, that's why
I hate myself for raping you

Eternally I swear
I'll be thinkin' of you and what I did
Ev'ry night and day
I broke your heart, then I took your self-respect away
I hate myself for raping you
Can't break free from the things my temper made me do
I wanna walk but my tortured mind sends me running right back to what I did to you, that's why
I hate myself for raping you

I hate myself for raping you
Can't break free from the things my temper made me do
I wanna walk but my tortured mind sends me running right back to what I did to you, that's why
I hate myself for raping you

I hate myself for raping you
I hate myself for raping you
I hate myself for raping you

2008 Ramona Thompson