I Could Never Find The Words For An Apology. This Is My Best Attempt. I Am So Sorry Poem by Gabriella Mantone

Our love. I'm not sure what it was. Was it tender? Was it sweet? I'm not sure that I remember. I never believed someone could love me so tight. Enough to hold the pieces of my broken heart together? It couldn't be so. I try to blur the moments between then and now. How much I hurt you. So as I walk up to you now in your golden beauty, I see your arms outstretched wide for me. Have you been this way the whole entire time? Waiting for me to embrace you again. I notice the pain of your wrist. Scratches and scars where I tore at you with my raging anger. Leaving cuts of my imbalance. I wish I could kiss them all away. I would kiss each and every scar, and hope it was enough to make you smile. You didn't deserve this, why did you stay? Why did you let me hurt you so? It was never your fault dear. My pain of those who hurt me, I took out on the one who loved me most. Please forgive me. But I don't want you to. I can't understand why you would forgive me. I don't deserve that. But if I could wrap every strand of my body around you broken heart, I would. So I could do the same as you have done for me. Love has such a meaning. One that I can not define. But If I ever had to try. You would be my source. I'm sorry.