I Cannot Leave You Behind Poem by Adrian Cordova

'Love is not an easy thing, love is not an easy all that you can bring is all that cannot leave behind'-U2, Walk On

Through moonlight I see you.
Shadows light and artistic.
Your hands open at your sides.
Your knees are wobbling.
And my dying body is laying beside you.
Mabye it's just the dark.
Or your hair.
Or my dying vision.
Or mabye its a combination of all of those.
But can't see your beautiful face lit like I loved.
Or even sadened like I hate.
And that's when I realize what's happening, I'm not dying, our love for each other is.
My whole time with you I always thought that your bed would be mine.
That it would be warm.
That it wouldn't creak
And that it would be my deathbed.
As it turns out it was never meant to be any of those, just another stain on my heart, my tortured soul.
I remember when we went to the slums, and played with the children at the park, the parents never really stopped asking us to play with their children after that, did they?
I remember when we first decided to lay, my heart rushed so intensely a monitor would have mistaken me for dead, you were calm, patient, kind, helpful, seductive, and most of all willing. 
Everything I ever wanted from you, you gave me.
I remember that day we had had our first kiss, it was also the third time we ever met, even if we didn't know it at the time. You sang your heart out, I gave you a necklace, you pressed your self on to me, and the crowd cheered.
The first time we ever met, in our memory, you ate with me and a few of my family, my family went next door to shop, I stayed with you.
We walked on the beach, and you lost your necklace, but you didn't care, you showed me some of the most unique seashells, and I kept them.
The next day I found your necklace washed up on the shore, I added the shells to it, and you know the rest.
Now I dream, of you and I laying on the same beach, bathed in both salt water and, again, moonlight.
This time I see a new expression on you face, one that says more than I love you.
We lay there all night and find each other crying.
When dawn came I saw two things, your necklace and your finger shine simultaniously.
That's when I realize that no matter what happens to us, I will always love you with utmost cocern and tenderness.
But never with sensual feelings again.
You found yours...now it's time for me to find mine.