I Can't Have You And Be Free. Poem by Maya Hanson

I used to cover the whole
world, but what I couldn't see

was that my leash just went that
far, wrapped around your center of gravity

because you wanted me to
see everything I'd be missing

when you reeled me in like a
dog with a tucked tail

But you made me choose
and it tore me apart

Running to the edge of the earth in my
dreams, I'll drown myself in aqua blue

and hope that choosing is
no more evil than your eyes,

the eyes that once held mine
like they were rare and needed and beautiful and I

should have known, I'm not
rare just a human who has to

make selfish decisions like this one,
but then again the aqua blue has

told me exactly what I need,
I want your sweet breath

and bare infinities and intense
perfection, but I need to be

free.