I Beseech You Poem by Patrick Calleja

It is indeed true that I escape from you
That I avoid talking to you - Bumping into you
But indeed is it not true that I do it out of hate

I beseech you, for I do not do it out of grudge
But my mind does not let me look at you
Without flooding thoughts about how amazingly beautiful you are
Reminding me about how I'd wish to be with you
And at the same time reminding me that it'll never happen

I beseech you, for I do not do it out of spite
For my heart does not go without skipping a beat
Every moment I catch a glimpse of you
Spurring the lost feeling I have for you
Once forgotten - Or where they ever?

I beseech you, for I do not do it out of revenge
As my eyes do not let me look away
As I'm scared that if I give in to the struggle
I'll never be able to look away
Admiring your beauty - Your magnificence

I beseech you, for I do not do it out of antipathy
For I myself do not let myself be around you
As to guard my heart - Shift my feelings
And I do beseech you, never to think I do this out of hate
But because I love you so much