I Am Broken Poem by Connie Tallada

My mind went totaly blank
and my heart went static
I feel like I am torned apart into a mere debris
My senses refuses to response
all I can feel is the earth's entire gravity
falling into me and it's heavier than ever!
The feeling is surreal like sundry emotions
that exploded and deactivated - I am broken.

My heart is bleeding and crying in silence
It is bursting out loud from the tormenting pain.
The decision was tough but i had to
I had to let him go I had to let things go
I was distorted as I sent my goodbye message
I hate deciding against my will
But I have no choice but to let go
and bear with me my cast off self.

I feel like totaly discarded
like a child rejected by his playmates
I am at the point-zero of depression
and I feel nothing but the burning coldness inside
The feeling is unbearable
It's driving me out of my normal self
I wish I could just simply ignore the pain
but it is striking me all over again.

I am disoriented from my typical axis
And I don't know how long it will take
to get myself back or if I could
My emotions and intellect unite and mourn at once
My heart is full of deadly fluid flowing into my bloodstreams and veins
killing all my tissues and poisoning my brain
I am hurt badly like a huge amount of electricity
killing all my cells, flowing into my body.

How I wish I could be numb
So that I could feel nothing anymore
But even numbness can't bail me from this slicing heartaches
I wish I could fix my broken heart
But I don't even know where the broken pieces are
I wish I could bring back my old self
And live my life in a way I used to be
But how could I when this pain is killing me

©2009 CONICONZ