Hidden Poem by Julianna HIMika666

I am inside of me...hidden...alone
It's like my heart is turning to stone
Now I can say I didn't win
I wish someone knew what I mean

Remembering last couple of years
Revealing to me my old fears
I was trying to stop coldest rain
But all attempts were so vain

I wanted to burn in this heavenly flame
And there is no one except me to blame
Love was the thing I wanted to gain
But I got only this horrible pain

Tender salvation is that what I seek
But my hope is so helpless and weak
My life needs a meaning and frame
But without...what a shame

I have got in a prison of my own regrets
I am lost in my world of pretence
I have got in a prison of my own mistakes
I know how it feels when your heart breaks

Now I can say that I didn't win
Not saying a word to him was a sin