Heartbreak Poem by Yasmin Ruiz

The first time I saw you
Love
Although at first it seemed you
hated me
Yet, I was engulfed in an aura of pure joy
But behind it I was tearing apart
limb by limb, breath by breath, vein by vein.
I'd cry myself to sleep.

Then you became happier, pleasing
The aura came back, but
instead of only outsider
it went to my very core
I broke that heart many times.

Now
You seemed pleasing
But I can see now
I'm not blinded by the power of love
anymore
The hatred, anger, disgust
towards me
I just wanna cry
But there's no one
to catch me
anymore
When I fall

Slowly tearing
again
Old wounds
being opened up
again

I hate you now
But yet I still have
A glimmer of hope
That you'll love me
one day.

-
Yasmin Ruiz