Great Grandmother Poem by Courtney Redmond

Waiting was the start
Of all the troubles
You left me
I couldn’t believe it
God took you away
When I needed you the most
How do you explain to a six year old
The world of death and grief
The stages hit the heart
While your mind still grows
How can explaining help
Seems as though time
Just stopped for that minute
Of waiting
To hear that you were gone forever

The tears came
And the smile faded
The face scowled at happiness
Nothing could change the way I felt
Pain and heartache took over
And moved in to their home
While nothing in the days to come seemed to be

My life timbered downward
My dreams ceased
I got stuck in a hole of shame
The dirt laughed at me as I made my way up
The sticks of helpfulness
Broke as I tried to grab them
But I couldn’t get out
As my life grew dimmer
The lies continued
To cover my unhappiness
But I lost all control of my mind
The psychopath in me killed too many souls
That they lost count
It all stood on standstill
As I lost it all
But losing you
Was still the only thing
That stayed in my mind

Today your memory lives on
In my heart
Your words of wisdom still live in my head
“Don’t worry baby it’ll be alright’
And the favorite one of all
“No mater how old you are I can still beat your but
Even if I have to get on a chair and reach you”
Your legacy might not be great
Nor heard about in the world
But you’re still loved
My life
My love
My friend
My great grandmother