From I To Me Poem by Rashidah Writs

I gazed into the mirror
And wasn’t aware of
who was staring back at me
I dimmed the lights,
closed my eyes
Counted to three
to my surprise;
SHE was still there!
Turned the lights off,
Flipped the switch back on;
Then was instantly installed with fear-,

She still the there!
Who was that! ?
That was not the same person
I was staring at
Just a few months before
THAT girl looked so confused - so unsure
Extremely stressed and used
Heavy eye bags like she’s been abused
That - that -that girl
Feels like she can no longer think for herself
That girl doesn’t get why she’s been depending on everyone else
That girl behind all of her misery’s tried to put smiles on everyone’s face
And expected appreciation was turned to ungratefulness better yet it was replaced
She’s been bit so many times by the mouths she’s fed
She’s sadly lost her conscience; - she’s lost her head
She can’t understand why she has a few minutes of happiness
Instead of possesing a lifetime of joy
Developing the mentally of more, gimme more!
Graduating from greed to thieving thoughts
Because now its f-k the world ima gets mine
She doesn’t know what’s going on inside? !
She feels the only way out is to sleep and cry
There’s no more hope! It’s all led to wishful thinking
Mixed emotions everyday
From mad and upset,
To constructing regrets,
Some days brave but truly always afraid
She doesn’t know why she is frightened
Her surroundings are the same;
So why have her feelings changed
All of this nonsense is making her insane
This constant bewilder is bruising her brain
She notices what makes everyone else happy
And sad when they have to live without
So she thinks that is what she wants
But constantly put on a unnecessary front
When opportunities a’ knocking
She peeks but doesn’t open the door
She doesn’t know what the f-k she wants anymore
Should she go by what everyone else claims to be the cause of the their contentment
Or should she not, judging by her past experiences and gruesome remembrance
She’s asked herself so many questions
And came across no answers
She’s tried to understand the girl in the mirror
But it seemed like she’s already changed

The face in the mirror knows she beautiful
Like a mosaic work of art
But the brain in her head keeps telling her she’s ugly
And that she has lost all of her wit
She is no longer smart
That f-king girl in the mirror
Please leave the glass!
I need the other girl who’s made my life wonderful
To Leave the past
And come back to me today
She needs to show her loving, and caring face
And her love and appreciation for gods grace
The one who everyone knew to be me
The one that I only wish from now on to see
Because I can no longer wake up to see what SHE claims to be

That’s all I want from I to me.