Forbidden Desires Poem by C Morris

My desires for him have always been strong,
However inside,
I’ve known it is wrong.

I have tried for years to ignore my heart,
But the feelings within me,
Refuse to depart.

He wasn’t mine - It wasn’t right,
He was tied to another,
I should reject him outright.

Then one night he came to me,
Looked into my eyes,
So confidently.

‘I want to kiss you’ he turned and said,
I looked right at him,
My pulse just sped.

He took my hand then led me away,
Whilst in my head,
I began to pray.

‘I know dear Lord I must not carry on,
But I have craved this man,
For far too long’.

He leaned forward then caressed my face,
Kissed my mouth,
I felt disgrace.

His lips felt warm, the kiss so pure,
Pleasure so intense,
The pain I’d endure.

He pulled me close, I could smell his skin,
I felt so high,
My head in a spin.

A hand in my hair, the other my waist,
How could I possibly
Stop this embrace?

I opted to forget all the things that I knew,
For a clandestine moment,
That seemed long overdue.

I thought this would stop just as it started,
But neither of us,
Has found the strength to be parted.

I don’t want these meetings, to come to rest
But 'us' being together,
Can never be blessed.

I cannot condone this, my morals are loose,
These exploits are adulterous,
I have no excuse.

This must cease, since I know deep down,
These occasions of madness
Have repercussions profound.

But every time I really try to let go,
Something inside me,
Prevents me doing so.

Please Lord help, I’m unsure where to start,
I am a weak individual,
Without you guiding my heart.

Your spirit makes me strong, but I know I’ll cry,
When ending this liaison,
Saying ‘Goodbye’.