For Both Of Us... Poem by Julius Victorio

do I really want to lose my life?
Over another person?
It's either me or both of us...
down or up... for both of us...
knowing that now is not the time... for both of us...
knowing that this is not good... for both of us...
balancing the consequences of what might happen... for both of us...

I want to be alone... so that I can help others
because whoever is with me as a partner
restrains my assistance to my sisters and brothers

not being rude or emotionless
I just feel this is for the best
to break away from what I'm in now
so that I can begin to really show how -
much I can be more useful to the world
open the oyster to find the pearl
it only needs one more step
I just need to let it be finished
before my soul diminishes
and something... happens? ...