Finding Myself Poem by vivek khanna

Scanning my brain, going through the memories,
All that comes to mind is the pain and the suffering,
I went through them all alone, almost feeling that time had freezed,
You knew what I was going through, You knew but you didn't say a thing,
All the lies that you said, just made u feel
that I was believing that everything you said was real,
Day after day u kept telling them to me,
Like a stupid fellow in dreams I believed you,
And you make me a fool as u meant me to be........

I loved you way too much to let you know,
that all I wanted is somehow for us to go,
finding myself back is now my top priority,
but whenever I try to, all I find is insanity,
Now you have made me someone I hated all along,
I feel choked, broke and hopeless but! !
you were never wrong, it was me
Didn't realized that this is how it would end,
Now I don't need you,
Not even as my friend! !

As I try to collect the pieces of my life,
I see the one where I dreamt of you as my wife,
I try to smoother it, throw it far far away,
Trying to get the memories out my way,
But u know something that
You have left a huge scar in my heart,
But Whatever You may say we are never going to depart.......