Faith, A Revelation Of... Poem by Newo Enec

We laughed, smiled with blades behind our teeth
We loved and lied with others behind our lust
We smelled like beer and cheap cigarettes
And for a while, we thought we could make it
We didn't recognize how naive we were
We couldn't imagine a life without each other
We looked like ratty bargain bin mannequins
But for a while, we thought we would improve
We danced in circles beneath a hazy midnight
We talked like there was no tomorrow
We jumped into bed quicker than ever before
So for a while, we thought we were in love
So I'm finding it hard to sever 'me' from 'us'
To clip the 'you' from 'we'
I'm finding it hard to move on
But you're doing just fine
You've forgotten me just fine
'What were we? ' you say
'We? We weren't ever anything! '
So I cry, turning the key in the ignition
Tears flood my vision as I speed away
And pain stabs into my mind as the car screeches
Metal pierces metal
And my eyes slowly close
I wake up with thirty eyes staring at me
Beneath walls of blazing white
Yes, I see you there, in the corner
You wring your hands and keep glancing at the clock
A huge doctor looms above me
Stretching taller like a shadow
And wielding a wicked syringe
I leap from the bed and scurry to your arms
Crying, Tearing your hair from your scalp
Hearing the clock tick as your brown curls caress the floor
Your blood coats my fingertips
So I beautify my face with tthe essence of you
And my arms
And my legs
And my clothing, which I proceed to destroy
Everyone watches, even the steady clock
Everyone with their fish faces and open mouths
Their evil glares ignite my body
Setting me on fire from the inside out
So I jerk the door open and run
I run through a dirty labrynth of hospital corridors
My shreds of clinging clothing morph into wire
Strips of barbed wire snakes that constrict on my flesh
Until they cut straight through my body
Leave me in pieces on the unmopped floor
I look up at the window and the sun begins to pass
Speeding up as glimpses of people warp by my corpse
Then I wake up with you beside me
I begin to watch your breathing quicken
You look panicked, as if in the middle of a nightmare
Then, you wake up, staring into me with your endless dark eyes
Move over me, kiss me, your eyes are pooling up
'I dreampt I had forgotten how I loved you
And how you wanted to shock me into remembrance
And swallow me with guilt, but in the end
Your plans caught up with you, closed in on you
And left you behind.'
Its true that I had been losing hope
And losing hope disproves my faith
I promise to be more faithful, so someday
I might tell you how I feel