If Only I Could Stay Poem by Daegonius Bonapartea

Oh, I have found myself being left moreover than the latter goer

Oh, that I have been put in this heart- devouring position Oh how could I show her

That it is you I wish not to leave, yet to depart haveth I no other choice? I cannot rejoice nor can I stay my hands wish to remain yet my mouth says I would decay

If I were to stay Oh if I were to stay

For a year and a few months my mind has known you and whence I had the second taken my heart received you But, nonetheless

My heart regained my lost remnant and now I threw away that stress But now that I will lose you I am forever depressed

On this subject I do not know what to relay to you Oh dear

For it is everything you have given me and what I lose tomorrow that I fear

For losing you what other have I there is nay no other contraption to form or quick event to Try to pry

So on this day I cry for whatever would a severed man do yet un-severed between two lovers? So I die

Oh if were to stay, if I were to stay

We would laugh and play with our minds and game about our futuristic ideals and speak of what and which our hearts crave

But nay unforgivably and breath lost forsaken there is nothing before this clash nay nothing to end this rave

Pray have I given up for I heard no answers being relayed to my heart not even a simmer of love none to thwart

Only if, Oh just if I could have kissed you underneath the Buddha tree where the stars would stare and envy our romance.

Or if the arms you out around my gages heart could bare to keep it's former stance.

For tonight I write my heart out and instead of choosing to shout my heart and I choose to bout

A bout of words of cries and quarrels of myself

Of all my memories with her all the thoughts that I felt

Oh if only I were to stay if only I could.

But as is said of old there is no space for where no space be laid

And if there were space fate would have none else to offer that be paid

So on this night all that I can say is that it has given my heart withered and decayed.
I remember when we were upon the blood stained shore and you were beneath my legs nothing But our laughter could be heard underneath the ocean bay..


Oh if only if only Oh those words only that I may stay

... But how we both know you and I a void must befill the apple when a worm is deep inside..

For like a blackhole the more it spreads the larger it becomes the more havack it sows and so where does our blackhole abide?


How when with two could this love ever subside

between and betwixt not just you and yet I But three so I

should pick one to dispise.

But if I were to choose both without breaking human made morality

or peace at ease or Buddhist like spirituality

dost though not see my hearts voided cold reality?

Oh if I could stay if I were to stay oh only if my heart could stay.................