Eyes Wide Shut Poem by Tiff Murphy

Hopeful dreaming,
Ending wishes,
Never again to be blessed by his sweet kisses,
The times that I thought he would always be mine vanish without a trace,
Missing songs with the same verse as 'over and over' replays in my head,
As if the swiftest drum beat pounds right on the dot,
His eyes and lies were so convincing,
Why is it always me who trys to believe them,
All the pain and guilt,
That i chose to not see,
Because of my own belief that there is some good in humanity,
I must still be too young that I'm so naive about his trickery,
But when the clock strikes that final hour,
I keep wondering is this the time that he'll be going to another,
When he lays in her arms will it be me that he's seeing,
Is her love for him just as strong as the heart that almoust pounds out of my chest everytime I see him,
When I breath in his scent,
I cherish and grasp onto it as if to say i'll be keeping his memory imprinted in my mind for the rest of my life,
This love that he'll be leaving will have to eventually become the past,
But I'm not so sure that I'll be able to make it if he chooses to banish my memory and love,
He'll then send me to the very pit of my own eternal living hell,
The words 'i must prepare' echos throughout my mind,
But how can I when his lips have gotten me addicted like the finest of wines,
Please someone catch me when I fall so fast,
Because I can't save myself even though I know this love will never last.